The Possibility Of A New Futa TLOU2 Project, time to bury the Hatchet

 

"If that doesn't make me want to suck her off..I don't know what will...XD!" 

First, let me get this out the way,  I've hated The Last Of Us since the very beginning in 2013 when I wanted to set fire to 300,000 copies of the first game, yes I hated it that much! And Couldn't stand the press it got, all the hype, everything it was just irritating. Unfortunately, this is hardly about my hatred of the game..more or less it's about how I've spent the past few weeks this month (not October, but September. This blog was in draft for a while) and last month looking up ways to turn my hate into something positive, productive and more beneficial. Became far too important to waste it on past grievances.

If anything I tried to avoid anything TLOU1 related,but it was impossible because loli porn of Ellie and Sarah was everywhere. You could not dodge it, and it got to that point where I was just FORCED to tolerate it. I've had plenty of chances to do artwork of her in gorish situations out of frustrations and the amount of hatred I had for ND fanboys that annoyed me in arguments, I just never did it because it was pointless, and wouldn't make me feel any better. So I simply didn't bother. And whenever I felt like venting negatively about Part1 I always re-read it and I just sounded like an angry son of a bitch. I kept wondering if any of this was benefiting me health-wise, and it really wasn't.

 In all honesty, people said she was ugly in the sequel so I looked...LOL this is bullshit..Shes not ugly at all. She looks like an average normal girl sure, but she's not ugly like they kept claiming she was. Hell Claire Redfield is fucking ugly especially that Remake version and I didn't see anybody whining about her design I mean she don't even look white anymore, it's like she's not even related to Chris. She looks like a mixed person. And  Jill doesn't even look like the Jill from RE5 when she was actually attractive. Capcom literately shat on the new designs for their remakes. Yes I prefer Jill from RE5 over the remake for Part3.

I'm also trying to figure out what was so hot about Ellie as a 14 year old in the first one that everyone is so obsessed with fapping to though, she looks better as an adult than that Emma Watson knock off ver.

 Overall the bitching about her look in PT2 was unnecessary since there is nothing really wrong with her face, tits are just a little too small but that's about it. She does have more of a prison dyke thing going on, probably why I'm not bother by it since that's sort of my thing now with some of the artwork I've been doing recently, Prison chicks...Far as I'm concerned this version of Ellie would make my dick hard as fuck in one of DesireSFM animations if he did her in a prison setting fucking someone rough like she hated them...

And that's exactly what we were discussing too when he admitted "The hate between her and Abby would make for some good rough fucking." I remember showing this ver to Steven Carson and he told me he'll get this ver created for me in DAZ..That way I'll be able to do some Women in prison stuff with her in the future...If I ever get to produce story driven content in graphic novel form again...But then Steven went to someone and the guy failed to design her properly..So she is useless to me now, and I'll have to wait until I can find afford to find someone that will do her right.

There are characters I hate and I still can find a way to make use of them somehow, one way or another in one of my stories. I don't necessarily have to like a character just to use them for something.

 But my character Irene still needed herself a Rival..Back when I use to hate on Ellie a lot, it was one of the running gags of Bad Apple's, where Irene often mentioned her dislike of her nemesis. I did all sorts of comical anti-Ellie renders.

If you've seen the behavior of how most people reacted to this game you wouldn't want to be caught up in a situation where you come off as mentally unstable fighting over it, I'm at the age in life where it's crazy to even be fighting with people over shit like video games... People already knew what my stance was on the first one, and it was very VERY NEGATIVE.

Over the years  I slowly had no choice but to accept that this was not going to be easily erased from my memory something eventually had to give sooner or later. It was either I was going to spend my life in a homicidal rage at a fictional character and the product itself or I was going to eventually get over it and move on to something else.

Since holding a grudge against a video game wasn't really doing much, the best way to really get over it was through the old fashion method. Porn was my go-to source for "How to get over this and just fap!" Though I had still struggled with the imagery of Ellie despite the porn and she was still impossible to tolerate. I swear, I wanted her dead in the first one..didn't care for her fake daddy either because I hated him too.

But then arguing and debating a game I didn't like with the fanboys who irritated me to no bitter end proved to me I was wasting energy where I shouldn't have been wasting it...On angry ass fanboys. I'm like "man I'm in my late 20s fighting with these mutha fuckers over this trifling ass shit....I can't do it anymore. I'll just talk to the same people that I normally congregate with about this sort of thing and it doesn't break out into a verbal war between us. Fanboys don't even act like adults.

It's like everywhere I went people just wouldn't shut up about how much they hated Pt2 and if you hated the first one you got heat from the same dickheads. But I was never afraid to put them in their place.With the porn of TLOU1 Ellie was everywhere you never see her actually paired up with another girl like her sexuality implies. So I was always seeing her with males.

After we had that discussion I told him I just didn't want to be reminded of the first one anymore but somehow every time I saw Ellie I felt uncomfortable and sick to my stomach like throwing up no other female character in history has ever made me feel this much disdain for them and I hate a lot of characters. This was maybe around in 2014-2016. 

Because it was around the time when I was slowly losing interest in gaming and was barely any longer supporting game studios anymore when I realized that everything they were doing went against what I stood for. Gaming studios and Sony were all about censorship among other practices, and they indeed had agendas because they started ruining and making female characters less and less tolerable and appealing. Not to mention forcing female/race baiting type characters in games they had no business being in just for the sake off pushing an agenda with them.

Not just look wise, but personality wise...Like how they chose to fuck up Jill in the RE3 Remake by having her use profane language. The same way Lara Croft has been doing since the reboot which she never did in any of the old games...It's like ladylike characteristics no longer exist among female characters anymore. They all have this urge to do manly things for the sake of being "Tough."

  I can only tolerate the female masculinity, vulgar language, and rough like behavior in porn and erotic stories because that's what turn me on. It's like sure I find female masculinity appealing in erotica because of the female dominance nature that goes along with it. When women behave like men in lesbian like stories, I can't help but get aroused by it. But it certainly isn't the same thing or the same feeling I get when I am watching a movie, playing a video game, or watching a TV series with women in those dominating roles or possess the traits, and qualities I only find appealing in explicit stories and art. Female masculinity is a turn on in Porn/Erotica, outside of it its unappealing to me. That's why I hated Meryl so much in Metal Gear 4...Bitch pissed me off to the point where I wanted to blow her goddamn head off.

 After a while I kept seeing a few images of TLOU2 porn but not nearly as much as the first one, everything was mostly limited to pinup content. I was wondering how much useful Ellie or anyone in TLOU2 would be to me in one of my own projects if I were to continue working on more Women in Prison stories and Ellie already had the look of a female inmate. And seeing how I've been doing these whole women in prison stuff lately. I figured I would put Ellie in that situation just so I can have more of that girl on girl hate fuck stuff going on.

And that's when I started to slowly "accept her." Into the ranks. So I looked for more explicit images on the game I literately couldn't find anything on TLOU2 related to pornography, that was the struggle. I went around asking people for SFM models because Desire and I were talking about an animation project. Yet he wanted Abby to be the one doing the fucking, and I said "Just make Ellie the Futa, and pick a different girl..Ellie as a futa in prison would work." We discussed it for an hour or so and admitted to how we were excited about doing something like this despite the negative press of the actual game.

Even when I had a lot of hatred for Ellie I honestly kept it to myself...There were a lot of times when I wanted to vent about hating her out of anger and wanting her dead..Then I would read my private blogs and I felt really stupid raging about a fictional bitch because no matter how much I hated Ellie, it wouldn't solve anything for me on a personal level. 

But after seeing the behavior of these Anti-Abby complainers..I'm like "Fuck thank god I grew out of that shit...now I just wanna fap to some TLOU2. I completely stopped even worrying about how much I didn't like the game from 2013. At that point after talking to DesireSFM and StevenCarson I'm thinking.... 

Just give her a female to fuck roughly out of  hate and I'm good! Have her pull the hair, shout profanity at her, I don't care make the sex raw and angry, violent, nasty, do whatever you gotta do to get me off so I can get on with my already miserable suicidal life. I do not give two fucks about Part1 or Part2 or the fact Neil is doing a Part3 either. Just as long as I don't get exposed to anything from it other than porn. I don't want to find out Part 3 is about a 10 year old girl who becomes a killing machine that no one can stop...Seeing Ellie do all that bullshit at 14 was already annoying enough.

...shes blowing a guy....Why am I not surprised...? She's forced to be straight...lol

Steven Carson and I had a chat a few days ago and we spoke all damn day about DesireSFM, the current situation with animations in general, and how DesireSFM is the last futa animator left worth investing in. We both had equal concerns, so I had to talk to him.. This was way back at the beginning of September.

Steve still had some really good information and news for me when he mentioned Desire was going to do a TLOU2 animation and so I was thinking "Wow FINALLY he's doing futa of that?! It's going to be great! Which girls is he choosing?" Desire and I spoke about that ever since he did that TLOU2 animation with Ellie getting dicked up against the truck by her fake daddy. But then my mood went into full let down mode when Steven Carson told me that DesireSFM is afraid that people are going to hate him over this. I had to tell him

 "There are people who do want to see something good come out of it. Just because there are a bunch of people who don't act like adults about this shit, doesn't mean you cave in. Every artist deals with some backlash. We can't please every person, there is no point in even trying to do so. Regardless what you animate, your going to get some thumbs down and some people thumbing you up but it will always be more thumbs up than thumbs down.. No video is safe from having no negatives. There are already people doing animations with her, it's just that it's mostly boring stuff. But if they are able to do this guilt free, you can do even better."

Yes the original fans complaining is unavoidable and I have to say it but all fanboys are annoying as fuck no matter what they are a fan of. That's why I don't debate with them about shit anymore.But they also don't makeup 99% of the porn base either..What this means is that most people who just want to see porn won't even care if the game sucked to them or not. Anything Desire animates is worth putting money behind it, ANYTHING.I didn't really start to financially back too many artist until I invested in him, then it made me feel the need to support other people. I was a lot less concern with making profit off my own content during these times.

Hell, I eventually got over my hate of the damn characters once I finished my women in Prison story and I got this idea in my head where it was like "Ellie would make a perfect female inmate." I simply forgot I even hated TLOU after I completed my prison work because I couldn't stop thinking about a nasty Ellie as a futa hate fuckin someone behind bars.

But this guy I had met who did some Abby porn I had to ask him if he actually liked TLOU2, and he said he only liked the parts with Abby. He had to be THE FIRST and only person to openly admit this before I met a few other people who admitted to liking her. So I was pretty damn shocked because everyone else complained about her. He said, "I feel like the only one who's attracted to her."

He then told me that the only things he hated about the game were all the SJW stuff. So I asked him what was SJW about it and he mentioned that the game had no playable males, the story was about lesbians but it was poorly written and everything was controlled by women, and a woman who is 7 months pregnant was able to still run around to prove how tough she is. I don't know I didn't really care about the game itself. Desire told me about the ending and shit.

Second time I've seen her with a dick.....The artist that did this is Sherif3DX..I asked them if I could use her because this is the only DAZ version I seen all the other versions are for Blender...But I got no answer...*sighs* If I knew anybody with morphing talents in Zbrush I'd just pay them to make me one..A Much better version..Sadly I know any talented individuals. But then when I told Steven Carson about it I said 

"yeah I asked Sherif3DX if I could use their DAZ version and they ignored me...I'm upset about that but oh well." Steven then says "Well if you want her really bad, I can get her made for you." See how cool my futa brothers are? LOL. He knew I was talking about this version of Ellie all month long...and he tried to send me the image like minutes ago, but I already beat him to it cause I seen the image first..And he was like "I want to know your reaction" Yeah I was excited...I'd suck Ellie off. XDDDDDD!!!!! She look like a female inmate...Now I'm really turned on!

When looks enter the picture a lot of men just don't like masculine-looking women in general. Sure They could have made Abby appealing even with muscle. I've seen a lot of muscular women that look great. I recall StevenCarson himself saying "Nobody in the TLOU is attractive, they are all ugly!" I spat out my SPRITE, and almost got it into my computer. I'm thinking "no one in the game is a little attractive?? But he doesn't care about either Part1 or 2 either. And he finds the females in Resident Evil more appealing despite the fact they are just as average looking. With, Jill, Ada and Sheva being the only three attractive women, in my opinion. Rebecca was simply cute so she wasn't unattractive either.

 I spoke about my fetish with these masculine female types before, so it wasn't anything new to me. But in this fetish world of ours, it doesn't exactly matter what the hell we want to do, I still love the femdom/lezdom concept.

The muscle tones on her in some of the drawings I found would make for some good hardcore forced femdom stuff, and that is THE ONLY reason I would even give TLOU a shining chance. Is to see some of them in a prison setting with lots of hair pulling, clothing being ripped off, Verbal abuse, take all that anger and rage then put it in the form of a grueling sexual encounter experience, the female on female sexual nastiness would make for one hell of an experience.

Or it can just be in some urban run-down  room like a beat-up classroom, bathroom, abandoned hospital, or anywhere that makes it work.

I kept reassuring DesireSFM how all of this could play out and work in the end if he does decide to do it. The odds of him actually making something out of this game is maybe a 30% chance maybe even lower than that. Sometimes Desire has an idea he might run with, then he'll move on to something else afterward. Unless we keep discussing it whenever he is around, kind of like what we did with the Wonder Woman/Supergirl animation loop he made. We kept talking about it. These days I don't know, I don't think he'll do it though..If I had the talent I definitely would have done it or planned to. I look at things from a different perspective and come to the conclusion than anything can be transformed into something beneficial.

I told another artist the problem is people need to just get the fuck over it already, we're specializing in creating pornographic material with these things...I'm at the point where I just want to see good porn of certain games. I just don't care about the actual product because I don't buy, fund, or support gaming anymore. Just the people who create pornographic material out of it. If a game has SJW undertones in it, I could care less at this fucking point. Entertainment has been going down hill for quite a long time. Which is why I've not been to the movies in over 15 years, and I've not bought a single new game day 1 release since 2008.

And it's obvious no one liked the way Ellie looked in the second one even though I can admit she's not even ugly just average looking but not ugly, so there is much less explicit material of that version. For a regular average looking dyke chick, she doesn't look all that damn bad honestly. No she's not sexy, but she have the right look for the type of work I would use her for if I had a model of her.

From a rough around the edges type, she could fit in those femdom roles easily and I've had the thoughts of seeing her with another woman's hair in her hand while she fucked her hard from behind using vulgar language. And her shirt button-down with her body shown. She just needs a better physique...Too damn skinny. Her tits don't have to be oversized like a certain image I just posted here...a few paragraphs up lol. I did kind of struggle on who would be better dominating who. I would rather it not be someone like Abby or Dina. But hell if Desire choose one of those two, we'll just have to go along with it.

 ...Her breast look terrible...All deformed and oddly shaped..

A little bit up upgrading on her body, she would look good in some female on female sexual domination situations..Her tits don't have to be as big as that other image I posted lol, but slightly upgraded just a little wouldn't hurt. I always have ideas I want to see but I feel very limited by what I can or cannot do.

So if I could afford to, I would certainly pay several artists and animators to make what I'd love to see just because it's difficult finding good pornographic work on the internet in general. And I'm so bored of real porn, I don't even really bother with it anymore. I haven't been to Pornhub or any porn sites besides artistic ones in a long while.

Every once in a blue moon I  often get these vibes, and ideas in my head "damn I wish I had that guys talent, if I did I could make some real change and the people would be all over me." You all just don't know how much I wish I could be an amazing artist beyond what I currently do..Don't get me wrong, I enjoy my own work. It's just that, I could be doing a lot better than this right now.

 

Yeah I fapped to this...What of it? That Abby made my dick hard...With her sexy muscular masculine looking ass....Stroke that big ass meaty dick to the woman you hate.