I was destined to create story books
All my life I wanted to be an animator, but instead I was destined to create graphic novels and short comics. You see whenever I watch someone like DesireSFM, RadroachHD, Nyl, StudioFow, Rigid, you know just any really good animator that understands the fundamentals of animating great sexual content. The kind of content that gets people really excited... I felt obliged to become an animator myself again, I've always wanted to animate intense graphical sex scenes if only I could learn the fundamentals. Before I even knew who any of these guys were that I just mentioned, I went to college back in 2007 where I studied animation and theatre art.
I was real fascinated in stage plays, puppetry, makeup design, stage design. When I was a kid I did a lot of plays in Elementary school and not once did I ever get stage fright in front of a large audience. I remember playing the role of some half lion half beast creature, and I had to be attacked by these hunters (My classmates were the hunters)... I was a natural, acting at an early age. But I had no interest in becoming an actor at all even though I did well in stage plays at school.
In college I worked on lighting sets for stage and that's where I began developing an interest in stage design, you know interiors and exteriors. You can say that's how I learned how to create interesting environments within my 3D work of art. I was always a master of interior development, and setting the stage before the actors could go on to do their thing. I could take any room and convert it into something new because I look at these things from a stage designer point of view.
When my career prospects of working in theatrics looked disappointing I chose to change my degree of choice to become an animator... Sadly I could never grasp the fundamentals and that's why I turned out to be a failure. One of the things about me that separates me apart from these other futanari artist is my willingness to explore risky and dangerously good ideas.
I don't like boring art, I don't like playing it safe, I want mystery, I want excitement, and I want the content to keep me thinking about it. That's why I would never allow Patreon to control my ideas in a way that I am stuck creating whatever they approve. I also didn't restrict myself to creating explicit content, I branched out and have a portfolio with safer material so if I have to use it to showcase my work in a "professional setting" I'll be able to revert to my non-explicit artwork. But I just like to create non-erotic content in general every now and then.
It requires the level of patience that a vast majority of artist who want to be animators simply do not have. That's why you see so many janky looking animations with unrealistic movements... And there are artist that have been animating like that for years and still never improved. It's one of the things I can't see myself investing in and still struggling with it. I would have given up and tried something else if my animating ability couldn't go beyond the beginner stage.
Having a vision and staying committed to that vision is very important and it can work to your advantage once you understand what you want to do with that vision. Throughout most of my life I've always wanted a lot of people to love and appreciate my work, the amount of enthusiasm I have for creating these kinds of things do a whole lot of wonders for my depression.
Whenever I do come across an animation I like or really enjoy I just think to myself how much fun it would be if I could really bring my own work to life with moving pictures. The trouble is, I have no way to do that and I have low tolerance for the amount of patience that's required to become that good at animating. But what I do have a lot of patience for is creating graphic novels and comics, it doesn't bother me if I take a week or a whole month to come up with something I can be proud of. So far all I've created were failures up to this point now that I have several projects I've been working on that I'm not at all ashamed of. I say the possibility of finally finishing a few books that I like, are becoming more of a reality than it was a few years ago. Right now I'm having a blast with Shadow Hill Escape from Echidna, I get to do all kinds of things I rarely ever bother to do otherwise.
This is a ugly render, from three years ago. I should have remade this since I was working on a graphic novel for this very movie. But I had plans to deviate away from the plot of the film. I never fully watched the movie, but I know enough about the plot. I've always been a fan of 90s thrillers. That was back when they knew how to really film after taking the torch from the 80s, two decades of filming that are still unbeatable. The 70s had some great stuff too.
And while there have been a few films released in the early 2000s that did quite well.. If you want to see good movies in the modern age... Foreign is the way to go, American films are no longer worthy anymore, even the big budget films are terrible...Too much forced politics in everything, and no one wants to take risk because they are too afraid of offending the petty victimhood generation. So what do we get? Lots of watered down pandering garbage with awful boring storylines.
