From Religious Art To The Dark Arts (Artwork from my dark beginnings)
Boy...This certainly does take me back quite a long time ago....When I did this I was still a member of Deviant Art back in 2016. My first comics were sort of a test run to see what I was capable of at coming up with story material. I never made it far enough to accomplish anything with any of them. Sometimes I would do about one or ten panels before quitting. I use to sit around coming up with all these cover art ideas and then I would wait to see what the reaction would be to the cover art before working on the actual book itself.
When I go through old work that I don't have to worry about anymore I ask myself "Should I remake some of these with my current art style?" The problem is that I failed to save the majority of my comics with the written context applied to them. But I vaguely remember the content well enough to go back and remake them again if I wanted to and I wouldn't rewrite all the same dialog even if I did remake them.
Though I did find some of the dialog portions to my attempt to do the Faculty but the comic itself wasn't going to be named after that film, it was something else I just don't remember. I only know the film gave me some kind of inspiration to do an Alien school invasion theme I never got to do much with. If I recall correctly, Emma and Christina joined forces together to fight against the alien invasion. Christina gets impregnated and then tries to kill herself (which she does by placing the barrel of the gun into her mouth and blowing out her own brains). Now Emma must face these creatures all by herself. I did some very stupid shit with that comic like most I try to just forget.
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So I didn't have any explicit work until much later when I posted one image there that got me suspended for three months because it involved a ghost futanari but the image had no sex, it was the exposed erection that got me in trouble with the platform. Old people don't like erect cocks it seems.
I met this 60 year old lady there that was very nice at helping me survive the platform but at times I had to show her my work before posting it just to make sure I didn't violate the TOS. It was like asking my grandmother permission if I can post something -laughing- although my grandmother is in her 90s.
Sometimes she would even buy and gift me content off my wishlist.... I met quite a lot of old friends on that platform between the ages of 50-80 years old so about 98% of my art was definitely non-explicit back then because audiences that old probably wouldn't have understood and they were more into art that anyone could look at.
I remember my mother asking me if I would be interested in creating art for the church, she then told me that children religious art books were in demand and I should consider creating for kids. I honestly had no direction what so ever because I didn't know what I wanted to do as far as art goes. My ideas were all over the damn place.
So I came up with a religious story titled Spider Tree for all audiences because it had no violence, no explicit content, and it was just a fantasy story involving two siblings in a classic Disney-Esque adventure tale without the distracting musicals which I always hated about Disney movies.
Spider Tree later became The Book Of Eve a darker adult version of the story was made and eventually it developed into the horror erotic tale you know today as Shadow Hill after I stopped producing art for the church my art became more sinister. It's like how Disney wanted to keep original stories from the Brother's Grimm tales but couldn't because it would have been too much for children to process so they had to alter everything.
I then told myself that I wanted to keep some of the old titles and I should return to Spider Tree someday even though I wouldn't be able to create for the church anymore knowing that my reputation would get ruined if they knew the type of art I was creating now and its kind of hard to give up on futanari, sexual violence, and all those dark ideas I have waiting to be unleashed on the masses once more.
Spider Tree was similar to stories like Charlotte's Web, James And The Giant Peach, A Nightmare Before Christmas, and of course The Black Cauldron. It was an adventure fantasy story about these two Romanian sisters that lived on the Prairie with their mother that became very sick after her husband went away on an expedition and never returned. The mother's sickness became so severe she couldn't take care of her daughters or even herself.
One night Emily sees an Angel, a special gift that her sister does not possess. Emily sees the Angel outside of her bedroom window that tells her about a Tree that can help cure any sickness and disease if she pray beneath it before Christmas Eve. It was probably going to be the longest comic project I was planning to work on in December but I never made it beyond 10 panels and just one day quit on the whole thing. This was common that I would start on assignments then quit in the middle of completing them whenever I felt unsure about the reception it would receive. So I constantly doubted myself and my own work not wanting to create anything for the sole purpose of being overlooked or selling less copies then feeling that my time was wasted on a project I spent months developing.
Every now and then I feel like doing these stories again because my art looks so much better than what it was before. Now that I'm using Daz Studio Iray and not poser pro's biased and outdated firefly rendering engine (which all of these images were rendered on). I could pull it off better than I did before but I would never create for the church again because there is little creative freedom but even working for the explicit content creation market, there's still no goddamn creative freedom.You have assholes telling you how old characters should be, or that something is a violation of this and that policy.
Part of the reason I even quit creating long ago is because I was dying to do darker stories and was bored of strict religious fantasy stories but the church controlled the content I was allowed to produce so the temptation to go beyond what they would have me do was always strong to cross the line knowing the Bible had all these intense stories about demons, angels, fallen men, and fallen women.
There was a lot you could do with that stuff from an explicit standpoint but it was blasphemous and spitting in God's face manipulating the content in such a way that was unfit for the church. I'm thinking well there's all this fake Nun porn with women pretending to be Nuns and wearing crosses, wouldn't that still count as being blasphemous?
Other than religious works of fiction I started out with there were times when I tried my hand at super heroine comics as well, because back in the day Super heroine comics were all the rage and I remember meeting several artist like Eric Logan III that was doing his thing with super heroine comics and because of him I felt like giving it a shot myself to see if I could be any good at doing it. The first few comics I did that involved Super Heroine included Wonder Woman I felt she was perfect to start out with since I didn't have a good Supergirl outfit or character at the time.
When I finally did Super girl I was still for some reason more interested in doing more stuff with Wonder Woman and not exactly sure why I was invested in her so much since I never was a fan of DC comics I always liked Marvel's characters better due to their cooler designers...Now I just hate them and their unnecessary multi-verses...
Overall I always thought Wonder Woman was the female version of Superman. I didn't even know about Supergirl and Powergirl until the mid 2000s believe it or not. I recall doing a few books for Wonder Woman and one of them involved Reika Kitami from Bible Black.
I use to get asked quite often about finishing it because I never did. It was another project where I made it halfway through the book before quitting. I wasn't satisfied about it. Ever so often I come across images from long ago and I'm thinking how would people accept them today if I went back and tried again. I do have a Wonder Woman character I created not long ago but never used her in anything.
I keep a lot of characters around in case I come up with something or someone ask me for a commission involving that specific character. I don't necessarily have to like the character myself to do something with them as I have mentioned about Ellie from the TLOU several times. She fits into the Raizen Fury series so I made use of a character I dislike. Originally at first I was going to just do evil bad stuff to her all the time when I had that obsession with hating her.
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