My life lessons learned from Femdom Propaganda

This blog is similar to another blog I wrote several years ago about glorifying dominant women. It's a continuation of that blog. Only this time I discuss some other things I didn't talk about in that blog (its not available, correcting grammar issues in it). LOTS of new stuff. This one is related to pornographic femdom propaganda, mainstream media such as movies, and some affects it had on me and how it changed my views on certain women outside of pornography. 

This blog contains femdom and a few sexual violent scenes from Thriller/Drama movie scenes I found from google search for the sole purpose of discussing things related to femdom and how it affected my desire to pursue dominant women. Everything here is for educational, emotional, and psychological reasons related to the subject matter I wish to discuss.

WARNING: There is nothing ILLEGAL in this blog, some images are just pornographic femdom images others are extreme sex scenes from mainstream movies. Its a long blog but I had time to spare. I was severely depressed so all this venting takes a little of that edge off.

 

What is Femdom propaganda? The word propaganda basically means something that tries to twist you into believing that something is real when in actuality it's not. In other words it's all bullshit and lies to persuade and manipulate how you think of something that isn't true to life at all. Propaganda have many forms but the point of it is to brainwash and deceive you. Some people fall for it due to pure ignorance alone, and there are those who know and recognize propaganda soon as they see it. 

When it comes down to pornography, propaganda is everywhere. No matter how true some people try to make any of it seems, porn really is a tool of manipulation. That's not to say I wish to discredit pornography for allowing me to explore sex in a variety of ways...Its just that sometimes it can have negative effects on the mental state of mind, and that's just me being real about this.

Was pornography always intended to manipulate and screw with our minds? Years ago I recall how this guy wrecked every relationship he had because he actually believed that a lot of women loved being choked during sex. And there was this old article I found back in 2008 or 2014 where several women or it was teen girls that complained about their partners trying to perform anal sex on them after they had seen a lot of anal sex porn movies. 

Once you finally realize that pornography does not truly influence real life you start seeing right through it.Therefore it's best to be aware of propaganda so that you aren't easily manipulated by any of it. There came a time in my life when I was just so turned on by what I was seeing with femdom pornography, thriller movies, commercials and television series featuring assertive women in control. I really started to believe it....The more I watched the more I wanted a dominant woman to claim for myself. It got to the point where I was tired of fantasies...My goal was to settle down with a dominant woman. It developed into an obsession, a mission impossible.

The thing about me though is that I didn't become attracted to dominant women due to being weak, or submissive even when I felt the urge to submit to female dominance in a relationship. I can admit that Femdom pornography itself was always aimed at men who had a weakness for dominant women. Femdom content is known for displaying men as being weaker than women. The lesbian side of it is very similar because it showcase women dominating other women in the same way. But you see I didn't start out with lesbian femdom porn. I use to watch everything femdom related including dominant women dominating men.  Just not the cuckoldry shit or them forcing men to dress as women so other men can fuck them...Hell no! I wasn't going in that direction.

I was not seeking any type of self humiliation from Femdom Erotica but there were some things I would have tried sexually with a dominant woman just to see whether or not it would improve and make my sex life better. Overall I wanted to commit myself to a woman's authority because of my fascination with women in authority roles throughout society and history. And it was female authority I was highly attracted to, not her humiliating me and treating me like dog shit because she believes I'm weak, inferior, pathetic, or her bitch, NO! It was much more than that...Boredom of the Alpha traits one can say...Seeking a way to make my relationship with women interesting, maybe break away from traditional roles for awhile and see how it would all work out in the end before returning back to normalcy if for some reason I hated it or grew tired of a woman's dominance. 

I really wanted to believe that everything I was watching and observing was real since I dispelled all that information about the animal kingdom I read other than the obvious stuff I already knew was true such as some female animals being ten times more aggressive than their male counterparts. Human beings on the other hand are different even if we share some similarities to animals in some ways.

Eventually there came a breaking point in my life where I had to just open my damn eyes, open my mind, and just accept the fact that everything I was exposing myself  to was nothing more than propaganda. It was just make believe, fiction and acting. I had to accept all of this when it came down to femdom relationships including the thriller movies, erotica and pornography I consumed on a regular basis.

Even after I was able to awaken from the failed belief I had about dominant women. I was still determined throughout my 20s to meet such a woman just like the ones I use to see in those thriller movies, dark comedies, and dark romance stories. Someone I could commit myself to. Not as my mistress, and not as her slave or property, but someone I could love, honor, and forever keep close.

In my case I use to buy into the belief that if a man submits to dominant women she would respect and love him more. If he gives a woman power, control, and authority over the relationship she will do anything to please him since he sees her as someone above himself. I wanted to treat a woman as my superior, not my equal. I went through life believing that a man should submit to a woman and allow her to lead and he must follow her....I once believed that the more power a man allowed the woman to obtain the stronger the bond between him and the woman would become. That was my core belief in my 20s before I started to change my attitude. I had to contend with swallowing more than one black pill. Once I had to accept that everything I believed was more fiction than reality and observing the behavior of women outside of fiction....Things changed on a mental level. 

I spent a lot of time feeling depressed, and crushed by my own painful views at the time....Submissive men are often involved with the worse kind of women... Bitchy, mean spirited, shitty attitudes and they strongly hate their partners or spouse. Normally these women are not very attractive physically or mentally either.

There would be times when I couldn't even watch femdom pornography at all without feeling like shit because I could never have such a woman like the ones I desired. I wanted women who would just come to me and instead of me kissing them first, they forced one on me. My cousin actually met aggressive women and he hated them. He said he couldn't stand such women at all.

I think the mainstream movies had an even greater affect on me than femdom porn since the women displayed realistic dominance in these films. Porn always made everything look fake and poorly demonstrated. Mainstream movies displayed female dominance from an authentic point of view that made you want to BELIEVE IT! You would have the dark lighting and some woman aggressively taking control of a man in a grungy looking environment, kissing his neck from behind....It always put me right there in the passenger seat and damn I was aroused by it.

I kept feeling as though reality, and human nature alone just would never allow it to become true. Even though I really wanted and was very determined. I experienced the worse emotional meltdown living with that reality because of how hard and difficult for me it was...I had to accept that in this world, nature always win...Not our fantasies or our desires...Because fantasies aren't real. If a woman has rape fantasies, does it mean she wants to experience a real sexual assault attack? I don't know, hard to say. I've never read a rape story where the victim was turned on by the violent assault, that's not to say it isn't possible since some women are just downright deranged. I've had dark fantasies about a woman sexually assaulting me several times.

Some men desire dominant women for a lot of different reasons. It doesn't always have something to do with him being a weak man either. You have men that just find masculine energy that a woman possess extremely arousing. All that talk about men going for dominant women who possess masculine energy is because he secretly wants to be with another man is a bunch of lies.

I have never before in my life desired other men, and no transsexuals don't count because I still see female features even if they have a dick. Sure they are biologically male but it's easy for me to overlook this because whenever I watch trans porn I'm not thinking about them as biological males. So it goes right over my head. I have once asked myself the question if I would be able to pummel one hard or would I hesitate, "this person is a biological male, should I or should I not do this?"

The only time I found male features "arousing" is when I was looking at some of those female body builders and even then I'm still desiring women and not men regardless of the physique. If I really wanted to lust after men I can just look at actual men instead of  masculine like women displaying male like traits. There is more to a man desiring a woman he believes to be stronger than himself than just the kink.  In my case I was just ultimately attracted to such women because of movies and aggressive women in control scenes like this scene above^ my desire to have a dominant woman was never restricted or limited to a fetish I was able to see much further beyond my imagination or the visuals in front of me.

Sadly unless you are a lesbian woman desiring a dominant assertive woman. None of this is even possible in heterosexual relationships, there would never be any respect given from it. Women generally get upset, irritated, repulsed and just downright annoyed when a man is willing to submit to her and displays little to no Alpha traits.

And because heterosexual couples aren't wired the same as gay or lesbian couples...They strongly care about normalcy in their relationships. This is especially true among traditional couples. Which I can understand greatly as to why they chose to remain traditional in their ways. Traditional relationships generally have the strongest bonds depending on the environment.

Sure you might find a woman that will use a strap on to fuck you in order to make your sex life interesting. But once a woman starts thinking of you as a weak and inferior person, or even seeking dominance from another man to get what she can't from you...There is no respect, no love, no trust, no honor in that relationship at all. This is going to certainly happen in heterosexual relationships. I don't think there's any women any where that wants to be fully in charge of a relationship.

Cuckolds get dehumanize all the time by their own women because they embrace having shit self esteem and wear that whole being a loser nonsense as a badge of honor. They also see absolutely nothing wrong with their women having NO RESPECT at all for them either which is why they are even hated strongly by the incel community as well. That's how bad their self esteem really is and why I get annoyed with their shit fetish since this is how a lot of these men really are! I'm no incel mind you, but I just can't stand cuckoldry males who have no sense of determination and think being a loser is a good thing.

It is a very pathetic way to be involved with someone. Men choose the life of cuckoldry because they truly believe they are inferior to other men. To me it's self abuse and self defeating.
These are NOT the type of thoughts I have about myself. I am not a fucking loser, and I don't see anything positive in being one, embracing the idea or concept of being a loser/failure.

These type of individuals don't mind being abused, bullied, and treated like dog-shit by a woman that would rather screw other men in front of her husband/boyfriend that she truly believes is NOTHING. But she's nothing either, a woman who has to fuck other men to dehumanize their own lover is total trash!

That's not what I wanted at all from a woman. I don't want to ever be involved with cuckoldry bullshit or having a woman thinking of me negatively just because I want her to be dominant. I still want respect from her. When the two sexes are the same, they care about specific roles sometimes but most of the time it generally doesn't matter who is dominant or who is passive in those relationships. If a woman wants to submit to another woman that woman isn't going to just outright deceive her girlfriend or leave her just because she wants to be submissive to her.

It's to be expected that sometimes one woman will be dominant and the other submissive. I see this often among lesbian couples. One is submissive the other is dominant at least in public but there is a possibility this is how they treat each other in private as well. Usually if one woman is masculine looking, she's the dominant one. I've never seen a Dominant lesbian display submissive traits before, NEVER. Not saying submissive Dominant lesbians don't exist. I'm sure they do.

Dominant lesbians usually try to reflect the characteristics of an Alpha male by looking, behaving and even dressing like a dominant male. And they aren't good looking at all.

So what happens when they are both the same in terms of personality traits? What happens when two Dominant lesbians get involved? Or when two ordinary feminine passive lesbians get involved? They usually share the same traits as each other. So you have two feminine women together or two dominant women together sharing similar traits. Opposites don't always attract either as far as personality and characteristics go.

Hetero girls on the other hand are different, they follow the laws of nature. Nature have a say in how they respond to specific men so usually they just insult men they believe to be passive to them, berate, call them negative names, mistreat them, cheat on them with dominant aggressive men, they complain to other women "why is he so weak and submissive to me? I wish he was more of a man!" I'm judging Western women on this one since I don't know if this is how ALL women on a global scale think. Cultures vary and at times cultural standards have a say in how certain women interact with the opposite sex in terms of dominance and submissiveness.

A bisexual woman is a unpredictable scenario entirely, they are much more complex in how they approach relationships compared to their strictly hetero counterparts. Would bisexual women be okay with a submissive man without it complicating things just because she dates submissive women? Or is she only accepting of submissive women but expects the men to be dominant? Between hetero, bisexual, and lesbian women. I believe a bisexual woman would be more capable of experimenting to see what she finds most attractive to her in a man.

 

Lesbians ignore it entirely because they are attracted to other women regardless therefore it doesn't apply to how they interact with dominant or submissive women. But I'm not exactly sure if homosexuality plays that big of a role in any of it really. These are just some observations I have had based on experiences whenever I met or encountered these sort of couples throughout the U.S. Whenever I was just roaming about somewhere and people would come up to me because of the clothing I wore. I did the Gothic look serious justice, no one could resist approaching me.

One part of me wants a dominant woman the other side of me wants a traditional woman. I'm at war with my own desires, but a traditional woman is more attainable than a dominant woman except neither is attainable in the Western world for most men who are lonely. That's not the type of relationship I want unfortunately.

Women on those shows like CSI, The X-Files or in tv commercials representing a law firm or just your power suit wearing business woman in the 90s that wore suits with their confident tone of voice, were also a major turn on for me. They were the starting point to me finding an attraction toward assertive women, news reporters, if I saw a woman in a business suit I wanted her instantly. But there were times when overly confident women also turned me off, or were just plain out annoying. 

I didn't like the bitchy, bossy push over wife type like that bitch in shows like Everybody Love's Raymond who was always belittling her husband. I've heard so many men say they hated that show because of that. In fact I had a problem with non pornographic movies displaying female domination quite often since they were always aimed at promoting female dominance from a Feminist perspective displaying female superiority over men for the sole purpose of trying to "empower" women. Not every film or tv show did this. Only a few of them were guilty of it like the obvious movies Girl With a Dragon Tattoo, I spit on your grave, etc. All feminist revenge movies or even movies based on books that were turned into movies using revenge elements and themes were guilty and prime suspects of all the feminism displays of "dominance" and I honestly had no interest in that shit.

The source that provided me with an education on dominant women other than porn was my original source...HBO, Cinemax, Sundance. Those movie channels use to always offer late night television thriller and Drama movies that had all the intense femdom moments. I believe the very first movie I saw with extreme femdom elements in it was Poison Ivy The New Seduction (1997) and it was much better and steamy than the first Poison Ivy movie, just slow at times.. There was nothing quite like this movie that I seen before, although I do not care for femme fatale types that seduce men and then kill them. There's something about women in the 80s and 90s that really pulled off the dominant role though. None of these current generation women can compete with the 80s or the 90s.

In the early 90s and early 2000s sexual violence and revenge movies were also very common. The 70s had it's fair share but the 90s and early 2000s is where these movies really became mainstream. Female Revenge movies were popular among the broken and bleeding heart types. These films were a way for them to feel some sense of justice one could say. But women who were victims of a broken heart weren't the only ones drawn to Female revenge movies. They were films about female dominance when they were preparing to get revenge.

I don't think the revenge thriller genre really caught on with women who were victims of real sexual violence. Films of this nature tend to create these "lessons" that they want to teach their male viewers about sexually assaulting women or in some cases, teenage girls that will get even. But in actuality, it's to make men look and feel as though they are predatory by default. Film directors were always trying to vilify their male audiences with some of these horseshit movies, maybe it wasn't intentional, maybe it was. Either way it irritated the fuck out of me because I never watched such films to be dehumanized.

The early 90s and 2000s promoted a lot of themes involving female dominance. Sometimes they would get even with other women for stealing their lover.  But any time they took revenge on a man for any reason, whether it was cheating or assault, it was always deadly and brutal.... A lot of the segments in those female revenge movies rubbed me the wrong way... And the patterns were always the exact same. Repeating themselves over and over just to get their annoying message across.

This is exactly what I was talking about when I was discussing why older women should always have this character. I don't expect others to agree with this belief. But this trope is what inspired and influenced a lot of my artwork between older female and younger female characters. Women like this is why I was always turned on by older women when I was in my teens and early 20s to the point where I was constantly pursuing older women with a dominant mother complex because for some reason, the shit was a major turn on. It intensified the thoughts I had even more witnessing it.

There really is something to be said about an older woman, especially an older Caucasian woman in her 30s or early 40s that possess a dominant mother appeal to them. I don't understand what the hell was really going on in this scene or this series. It just seemed really strange and random, but I still like what I saw.

When Kirsten slapped him and he tries to kiss her because her dominance turned him on he just had to have her after that face slap...She grabs his throat before he can even steal a kiss and force him down on his knees where he stares deeply into her fierce eyes like he's in trouble for cutting school or getting shitty grades. She's showing full control of a dominant mother here and then she just throat fucks him with her fingers, speaks to him in the most assertive manner...."Now say thank you!" If I could have such a woman in my life, older, European, dominant, hair done like it's still the 1990s, I wouldn't care for anything else in this world...Just having her would be ENOUGH to overcome my suicidal thoughts.

I don't think I would be into this though...-Laughing-

I remember the first time I saw a female revenge movie without the seduction elements that Poison Ivy had. It was Eye For An Eye (1996) and it came on random one night, it was one of the many revenge flicks about a man sexually assaulting a woman and she decides to go after him for it. But the fact is, there were so many movies about men sexually assaulting women and then women getting revenge. I used see a lot of films like this randomly coming on late night television, but can't exactly remember them all off the top of my head. There is a certain way I like to see women displaying dominance over others but not like how a lot of these revenge films were doing it.

I found myself irritated with cinema because I was just so tired of this overwhelming, predictable cliche revenge horseshit. I was never getting what I wanted from femdom porn or mainstream movies involving dominant women watching any of them. On top of it all, I had to contend with not getting what I wanted in the real world from the women I craved to be involved with as well.

Revenge movies aimed at trying to "empower women" with these "No means no!" messages always killed the credibility any of their sex scenes could have had in them whenever the woman does get revenge, because it's never pleasant to watch. I know it's not intended to be pleasant, but they always make it so obvious to me that they do this kind of stuff in these movies like they have a vendetta against men or something. Adding hard to watch torturing scenes like in Hostel when the guy get his dick cut off and fed to the dogs....These aren't sexy scenes....Unless you have a gore kink, which I don't. I also heard someone mention a movie called "Hard Candy" after I read the plot I knew for a fact I wasn't going to waste 4 seconds of my life watching that garbage.

The movie ONE WAY (2006) took a different approach on this revenge theme where a woman kidnaps her rapist, straps him to the steering wheel, assault his exposed ass and then she shoots and kills him. Scenes like this serve no purpose for my own appetites. The sexual part of that whole scene wasn't so bad since it displayed hardcore female dominance just the way I liked. She screwed him like she wanted him to see what it feels like to be taken without permission...

For some reason a woman displaying that kind of level of dominance is just the ultimate turn on...And I got extremely aroused by her doing this. I remember I edited out the killing scene, and I said "fuck this I gotta jerk off to this shit, I wish it was another woman in the guy's place but this is still the sexiest thing I've seen in a revenge movie...

Normally I skip these type of scenes now because I'm always expecting them to go in a direction that doesn't reflect what I desire from women in control. Except in most revenge movies, women rarely assault them like this ^ in fact this is basically the first time ever I saw a woman sexually assault a man for doing it to her. I recall a guy admitting he jacked off multiple times to that One Way revenge scene and I agreed because I did it just as much -laughing-

I generally love sexual violent content in movies involving women taking control but it really depends on how they go about doing it. And not when it ever involves men whether he's the giver or the taker. I prefer women being the aggressor in these scenarios but only if they are being assertive toward other women which is rare because, women only get assaulted by other women sexually in prison. I appreciated lesbian femdom themes and that changed my entire view of this sort of stuff. 

But such themes were very rare in actual mainstream movies unless it occurred in lesbian-eccentric thriller/drama films I didn't know anything about. If I knew of any Lesbian thrillers that involved such devious women strapping women to a steering wheel in the middle of nowhere for hurting them and just making her surrender to female supremacy. I'd love to know what those movies are called.

If the woman in that movie One Way kidnapped her abuser, tied him up, then used the strapon to assert her dominance over him like he did to her and then she let him go to remind him that she owns him. That would have been the sexiest way for a woman to punish you.

I won't even lie that scene was sexy when she put on the strap on aggressively, and just didn't even bother to spit into her hands or lube the guy, nothing. She yanked off his pants like she was pissed off causing him to tremble with fear. Then she just rammed the whole 10 to 12 inches of that hard fake dick viciously into his unprotected asshole until he screamed and he couldn't do anything about her taking control. I just don't like listening to men moan or scream during sex.

Regardless the thought of a woman taking power away in that manner was arousing. Who would have thought she would think to put on a strap on just to do that to him when she could have just shot him instead of assaulting his exposed ass in the first place like they do in every other revenge movie?

 It was honestly a very clever scene, since I've never seen a woman get revenge in this way before in any movie...I've seen some awful revenge sex scenes before, one scene involved a woman shoving a broom stick up a guy's ass, Hostel had the severed dick scene. But I hate torture porn in general when it's ultimately that violent, and Hostel was just a terrible fear porn movie.

First time I saw this character Lieutenant Einhorn in Ace Ventura, I seriously thought she was a man portraying a woman until I read about the actress and found out the truth. Regardless the powerful woman in a suit trope was the beginning to me having that attraction toward such a woman. And I loved her take control attitude in the film and found her ultimately sexy as hell every time she spoke. And how she always had a mean smug on her face, the female masculinity tone in her voice.

Her voice was a bit deep but that just adds to the sexy factor. It wasn't so deep that she sounded like a man though, it was just female masculine deep. She still sounded like a woman, just aggressive and rough like she couldn't wait to ram her fist shoulder deep up your tight non-lubed asshole....I can imagine how relentless she would be in the bedroom...That scene where she kissed Ace on the desk in her office, then bit down on his bottom lip while on top dominating him...You tell me that wasn't the best display of female domination. I don't know how he did that scene but I would have lost it...I would have begged her to break character and give me more of it. There would be 100+ Cuts! Because of that.

The women in those law firm commercials had an impact on me too. They would say something like " I will fight your case, together we will win, so call now!" And I was so tempted to pick up the phone to do that just to listen to them talk sexy to me. So yes, this dates all the way back to my youth when me and my cousin would call those hotlines and play around on the phone, running up the bill.

Before I had access to porn, I used to also watch American gladiators, sometimes just because I was smitten and loved watching strong women do things I didn't think were possible for them to ever do physically.  Which was pretty much limited to those specific types of women, since no ordinary female could ever do what those women were able to do. You were literately watching real life She-Hulk or Wonder Woman bend metal bars. My whole world changed when I finally and eventually discovered femdom porn way back in the early 2000s. I read lots of femdom erotic comics when there was nothing else better to do.

The interesting thing is that in high school I was always dominant towards girls and my interest in dominant women didn't really peak until I was about 20 years of age, even though I spent a great deal of my teens watching femdom erotica, reading it, and so on..I didn't start to really crave relationships with aggressive women until I was around 17 to 20 years old. That's when I started wanting real relationships with those types of women. I didn't want it to be a fetish, a part-time-only thing, or part of a kink..I truly desired commitment.

                                      She actually said, "Who's my bitch?" During this.

I subscribed to the belief that a man can change overtime if things don't work out the first time. But choosing a dominant woman to dominate your relationship always has consequences. Most men would never stop and ask themselves the question "does she respect me for my servitude character of putting her above me and treating her as my superior? Should I treat her as an equal instead of someone beneath me? What do I do?" In my case, I simply wanted a woman to feel as though she was my superior and not an equal at all. I didn't bother with asking myself doubtful questions.

Then RooshV before he became all religious and a self-righteous fraud that created a massive following on his new platform before he shut it down. He posted this image on his old website Return of the Kings showing men holding and hugging their girlfriends as if they were their mothers. And everyone on his website in the comment section kept making fun of them for how these men were hugging their girlfriends like they would hug their mothers. They then made all sorts of observations about it related to mother issues. The article regarding the mother and son complex between couples was one of interest that made me do a lot of thinking on the subject matter as to why a man would hug his girlfriend like his mother.

You would have some women standing up in the images like they were posing in a dominant protector sort of way of their children and their boyfriend would be either sitting down or kneeling hugging his girlfriend with his head rested on her belly like a frightened child who would hug their strong-willed mother defending them from harm. There were some pictures of women holding their boyfriends head and they would caress them in a nurturing way. I've seen such displays of affection only in dramatic scenes involving mothers whenever their son passed away. But to see this demonstrated from a dominance romantic standpoint where a woman is caressing her lover it's quite fascinating. I don't see anything wrong with this display of affection at all if the woman truly appreciates her partner and isn't doing it while thinking negatively about them.

When I saw all the criticisms I asked, what's wrong with a man hugging his girlfriend like she's his dominant mother? Is it wrong that a man has a mother love sort of thing for his girlfriend? Or does it just look very off putting and creepy to you guys, weird perhaps?

Certain things to me doesn't seem too abnormal or strange since some men might have mother issues the way some women have father issues and prefer to date older men for that very reason aside from seeing them as being more maturer.

Although one can't assume that a man is having mother issues is the reason why he chooses to hug his dominant woman like a mother figure or perhaps he just finds it sexy to have a mother/son sort of thing with his girlfriend/wife. I could say that these thoughts could be related to incest fantasies. The age difference between them would contribute to this as well like a young man dating an older woman with mother characteristics toward him. People find various ways to develop a special relationship that isn't common. Usually these relationships interest me the most since I find them to be a mystery worth trying to further understand. Too much normalcy gets boring after awhile.

I think certain men just have a different way of expressing their affection toward their girlfriend/wife. If it bothers the woman that he's hugging her a certain way and she perhaps believe that men aren't suppose to hug their girlfriend/wife in a way reserved for how they would hug their caring mother. Then I can see how that could be a problem for some women I suppose that feel uncomfortable with this behavior.

Usually women don't say anything directly to her lover, they tell it to a friend in secrecy
"My boyfriend treats me like I'm his mother!" If they can't come clean and tell the guy this to his face.
Then she's no good anyway unless they do it to spare hurting their feelings. This is why I said that sometimes when you watch porn so much, you can take specific genres seriously. The incest theme (which isn't the same as having a step-parent) might cause people to develop a desire to have a mom/son relation with a woman who is not his real mother or a woman wanting a sexual like relationship with a man that could be her real father.

What I do believe is that you need a special kind of woman, someone who is one of a kind if you truly desire a unique relationship. The rare breeds are always the hardest to meet among the hordes of women conforming to be like each other instead of that one special individual that's nothing like the rest.

I kept wondering to myself why is it that hetero relationships have to be so complicated? If a lesbian woman hugged her girlfriend like a dominant mother it wouldn't even be an issue, they would actually find it more intimate. Maybe she would kiss her girlfriend's forehead like a mom assuring her things will get better before kissing her on the lips. I've seen images of gay women lying in bed, and the older women are always hugging their girlfriends like a daughter talking to her mother about a bad dream she had. Does that make lesbian women uncomfortable? Or is it just an issue for hetero women if a man is like this toward them? 

A lot of my art is based on mother-complex and daughter roles sometimes from a sexual dominant standpoint, sometimes not. It depends on character chemistry. I don't create art involving males being passive to women or women displaying motherly traits toward men unless I intend to give her a son. Maybe part of me just finds it sexy to see a woman nurturing another woman like her mother. Which makes lesbianism encounters even more fascinating to me. At times the sight is quite fascinating when I see it displayed in vintage or renaissance art and paintings they depict such relationships in an exciting way and I immerse myself so much in Lesbianism themed art material.

The thing is most men are shunned in this day and age in the Western world, no matter where they stand. When you live in a fictional world for so long and start craving what you are used to seeing in fantasy, that itself can become a problem...Most of my life I was exposed to women in power roles through out a lot of media. Once Femdom porn reinforced my urge to be with such women, it made me feel guilty, depressed, even emotionally sick and angry at times when I had to come face to face with reality and accept that....I had to learn to repress those false desires and that was even harder to do. I had to try to let go or it would have destroyed and consumed me if I didn't.

Ursa was one of the first serious female villains I saw in a movie. That was around 1990 or 1993, but I seen Superman II before I watched Poison Ivy New Seduction. We used to own a lot of VHS movies back then, hundreds of them, and we had all the early Superman movies. I never understood Ursa's hatred of men. As I got older, I swear I thought she was intended to be a feminist villain or something. 

But even so, I found her overwhelming desire to dominate throughout the whole movie a major turn on. When I watched the movie again in my teens, I started liking the character. Just not the man-hating aspect of her, since it made no sense unless it's explained in the comics which I do not read. When Lois attacked her, I wanted her to kick Lois's ass and turn her out in front of Superman for being a bitch.

Her commanding voice, the clothes, her hair, which is what I go for in women like that. I'm surprised I never did anything artistic with her or created her to use in my own femdom works of fiction. Just imagine if the woman portraying Ursa and Rhea Ripley did a Lesbian scene together in those dominatrix clothing...Oh damn....

Femdom porn increased this never ending desire to be with such women the more I indulged in it...It wasn't a beta male thing with me since I never considered myself a "Beta male." More or less I'm bored of life if I must be honest. As I get older I become more bored of living.

Movies and television falsely promote beta males as the ones who get the girl. But in real life it's a lie. Such men who do have women are only with women who use these men and then they humiliate and abuse them. As like I said, women who are bullies date weak men for the sole purpose of being abusive, and to me, cuckoldry relationships are just shitty emotionally abusive relationships.

I was never interested in being humiliated by women. Just because I let them pull me around my collar doesn't mean I was being humiliated...Now if I got down on all fours, barked like a dog, or did something to make me look like I was weak then that would be different. So there is a big difference between what I was seeking. I don't get turned on by being dehumanized, belittled, or disrespected either.

Going through life believing what I had believed before was unhealthy enough because it made me miserable, and unhappy all the time. I would go to sleep having dreams about women I wanted to submit to.....Pornography is just fiction, mainstream movies are fiction...Once I started telling myself these black pill truths I was able to slowly get over feeling deceived. But I never got over the disappointment and anger. I was also never able to fully give up not desiring the kind of women I wanted either.

During my early 20s, I met this woman downtown, a much older Gothic woman. She had a sexy pixie tomboy hair cut like Joyce Dewitt from Three's Company back in the 80s. She had lots of piercings everywhere, and a few tattoos. She wore lots of dark clothing, when I laid eyes on her, I knew what I wanted. I knew what I had to do to get what I wanted,  I didn't like the damn tattoos. Or so I thought.

So I found this woman appealing, and I had my spike chain collar on with a long chain attached to it. I walked up to her and had a lengthy conversation which she started with me first because she adored my spiked boots. After having a conversation with her, I asked if she wanted to walk me around on a leash.... She was older than me, like maybe in her early 40s or mid to late 30s and I was just 22...Didn't care, older women in control were like my dream....

Some would say that younger men going after older women with a dominant streak means a guy has mother issues, which is why I brought up that mother complex scenario when RooshV was insulting men that treat their girlfriends as a mother figure. Of course I was never seeking a mother figure from a woman. 

I always had the belief that older women were suppose to be dominant and somewhat motherly by default. I also always had women instructors that were dominant in how they walked, how they spoke to their students. One of my school behavior specialist use to come to my house to talk to me and my brother when I was in Jr high school when I struggled a lot with thoughts of rage and violence.  I use to also be attracted to her as well.

It's easy to fall victim to your own kink, fetish by believing that any of it is true to life when it's not. I still enjoy femdom porn for what it is, and I get something out of being inspired by women dominating the universe in suits and heels wearing their stockings and 90s hairstyles with other women kneeling in front of their female superiors. 

It's just something about them that put thoughts in my head to desire such a person. And because yes I believed that giving a woman power would result in a better relationship with them. I learned a lot of life lessons from believing what I believed and the propaganda behind some of it.

....In a way I believe the mental aspect did a lot to me emotionally too....I woke up from that false belief I use to have even when I didn't want to. Now I look at pictures of traditional women that want to be lead by a man they want to protect them in times of danger. Those aren't the type of women that would dominate a relationship...

Either way it's different when you are a man and desire dominant women but have to accept the fact that they have zero respect or interest in men who have any interest in them if they aren't alpha males. At the end of the day women are always whining and bitching about shit...And a man being passive toward them is one of the many things they complain about.

Some women complain when men act like misogynist, and they also bitch when men put women on a pedestal. Then they'll go out and fuck some toxic asshole with a huge ego that don't even care about women, just pump and dump their sorry asses and move on to the next useless whore.  I'll tell any guy don't ever screw around with these type of women that love confusion unless you want a stupid woman for a girlfriend. Someone whining all the time about you being too nice one minute and then bitching because you think women are inferior or aren't equal to men. But will also bitch at you if you believe in female superiority.

I try to warn men with the same problem I was having...It's a waste of time pursuing fantasies and trying to make them more than what they really are. Fantasies are impossible to turn into reality and roleplay isn't the same thing. You can easily find a person bored enough to roleplay whatever it is that you like it's when you want it to be permanent that you might lose on that front. In this world it's hard to live...Reality bores the hell out of me sometimes, that's part of the reason I don't want a normal average relationship. Times like these however a man needs to be strong on a mental and physical level...After witnessing the things that are going on in America and Europe, the decline is for real...Once it gets really bad...The last thing on my mind will be dominant women but how to survive the desperation of humanity.